“We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it...” These words from the 9th Step Promises on page 83 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous may seem like a daunting proposition to the newcomer. For those experienced and practiced in AA's 12 Step Recovery Program, the past is viewed quite differently.
When we use the expression, "my own worse enemy," it's often related to specific choices we've made, but for me, it ran much deeper. I despised myself - not just the things I'd done but my entire being, including my soul. Why would God care about someone like me? This was more than low self-esteem, this is a repetitive compulsion, aggravated by our alcoholism.
Kit G. July 1, 1999 “Guilt upon the conscious, is [...]